lonely

Well im not a very big blogger i dont write unless its poetry or love letters to my girlfriend. Im not from ks im from new jersey and its been really hard to find friends rite now because ive been trying to find work i was going start an inhome daycare which was honestly something ive been wanting to do for a long time. I love kids and my gf and i have a son of our own hes almost 5 now. I been kinda rough on him lately cuz the only person i have to spend time with is my gf so we kinda fight for attention which to me sounds pathetic i mean hes a baby well not a baby baby but hes our baby! I just want some friends out here so i dont feel like the only friends i have r half way accross the country anymore it stresses my gf out because were so close we love eachother so much but i cant give her space or room to do her own thing. On top of all this halloween this year will be three years my mom has been gone and the only person i have to talk to about that is her,the only person i have to vent to is her and shes everything in the world to me. I dont want to push her away nemore with all of my angers and frustrations and i feel like if i had some friends to talk with and vent to sometimes hang out with and stuff like that then things may get a little less stressful!!